Limbo

I haven't typed a post like this in a long time. A post where I'm brutally honest and not just "Hey look at this picture!" Not that those are irrelevant posts but I promised myself I would be honest on my blog from the first day I started it.

The last month or so I felt as if I've been in Limbo. When I got back from summer break, I just knew I would be leaving Germany at the end of the school year and go back to Jacksonville. As the months progressed, I started feeling as though Germany was where I was supposed to be at least for another year. But now? Now I don't see myself anywhere and I don't know why. I feel as though I'm walking in a big question mark. Decisions have to be made but I don't know if I can make them without a strong dosage of prayer. I miss my family. I miss my friends who are all having children now and that I won't get to see until those babies are at least six months old. I feel like I'm missing out on so much, but at the same time I'm experiencing so much! The town that I live in is so beautiful and I love the fact that if I wanted to, I could walk into another country on any given day. I am so, so blessed that this is where God wanted me to be, if only for 2 years. But the year is going by so quickly and each time I try and ponder what life will be like a year from now, I want to chase the thought away.

I need direction. I need God's direction to lead me like never before. I don't like this whole "limbo" thing.

If you're reading this, please pray for God and his infinite wisdom to take over me and direct me in the way that I should go.

Limbo isn't fun.